To New Beginnings !

Sometimes to start new we have to end everything that we know - Why? I still don't know... Probably some questions don't have any answers, neither right nor wrong, infact it is best suited that way. As they say 'dots do connect in the end' and I am sure mine will too but for now i will have to make this journey to find my questions and answers to those questions.

There is so much I want to say , so much i want to share but words simply escape me - In one short word the journey of my moving to Canada has been "transformational" so far - I am not sure if this would do justice to what i want to say but probably one day i will be able to tell the story the way I want to .. for now.. i will probably stick to penning down the Journey so far..

Where should I start , probably towards the beginning - 'inception' or when the seed was planted. It was somewhere mid of 2017 when we filed our application- to be precise April'17 but we has been thinking about it much before than that - somewhere towards the end of Nov'16 when Vinay had come back from USA and had a kind of attitude shift to the thought of experiencing living abroad. Most of these years over endless debates and arguments he had always insisted that India is where he wanted to be. I on the other hand was open to living abroad for some years but mostly I had never given much thought to it and never really researched on it objectively.

Life anyways was going on and we were getting old and comfortable with the world we had created around us.. now to think of it - it is always the world you create that you live in - subconsciously we pull in people, events and circumstances we knowingly/unknowingly want in our life - That is what i believe and will some day try to pen my own experiences on this..So coming back to point .. There was a world we had created and we lived in ...but monotony or what next or probably just the sheer sense of chasing a goal coupled with the new found exposure to the developed world - Europe trip in 2015, USA in Nov 2016 and then in July 2017 kind of changed our perspective and we thought of giving Canadian PR a chance but as always we wanted to do it on our own instead of any agency / agent etc and then began the gruelling process of filing applications, documents and the entire drill - but we did receive our PRs and i would say sooner than expected - probably its the way of God saying 'Go ahead - this is my plan for you' - Amen!

For now this is all i have to say - I have left everything in God's hand and will follow his plan for me.

Life is made of moments and in moments shall we live!

Today is one of those slight wintry evening which tend to force you look back at your past and feel warmth of old memories. I sit back and think of all the moments which might have lasted only for some minutes or hours but are etched in my memory forever. Its been years that some of these happened but still someday a strange familiar fragrance of first rain, or a scent which seems vaguely familiar will open up the memory box

24th April 2018
Mississauga

Half written words that keep on pulling you back to where you left your train of thoughts - probably its time i complete this draft so that these dont haunt me again.

In my journey of life - 30+years that just flew by - what i remember mostly are the moments that took my breath away, moments where i can see huge transformations happening - which i certainly and blissfully was unaware then. In this post i want to visit those moments one by one, as far i can go down my memory lane , and stop in those moments briefly, smelling the fragrance, seeing the people, saying my hellos and goodbyes, moving on and pen them down- so that they are not lost in the 'Sands of Time'.

What do i want to write first - dont know - but let me take a chance. Do i want to write about the time i met you first or the time i met you again. An encounter that would change the course of my life forever. But even before you, there were some defining things that had shaped me the way I was when I met you... Was it the time i left the warmth of home to go to Kanpur or even before that when I went to Delhi - Miranda House -...Or should i speak about SVBPUAT first - where is i restarted my life again?

Or even before these there are so many happy memories of growing up..of my childhood..of those silent summer afternoons of RJPM or Mahanagar where there were many beginnings, life had goals and we had strength , motivation and optimism to achieve them ...and in mid of all these years ...was a small world of mine - at the centre of which were my parents and siblings ...and we were all growing up... at that time we just couldn't wait to grow up and now i realise how much i want to go back there again!

Life was simple then, wishes were less complex and possibilities endless..It was a wonderful childhood, nothing extra ordinary but everything that was required was there. If i look back there has been a journey from then to now and what a journey it has been..